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There’s things about me you don’t know, Dottie. Things you wouldn’t understand. Things you couldn’t understand. Things you shouldn’t understand.
I don’t understand.
You don’t want to get mixed up with a guy like me. I’m a loner, Dottie. A rebel.

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Ugh my SoulSeek is broken. My life is over. If someone has the Chronic album by Dr. Dre, please let me borrow it. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

I watched a John Waters movie last night and I wonder how he sleeps at night and what he dreams about. And I don’t like my hair anymore and want to get cornrows or a mohawk again but nobody is letting me gawwwwd I h8 everything.

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Yesterday was pretty cool. They gave us 4 blow off classes between 8:00 and 11:30 and lunch started at 11:30. Then they extended lunch to four hours. So I got to hang out with Sarah for 4 hours all day and we got to sit in the flatbed of Adenuga’s truck and we attempted to watch Finding Neverland in Mr. Silberman’s room and they school gave out free popcorn and ice cream. Best day ever. I didn’t get any ice cream though, just some popcorn. And I’m on the yearbook team.

Then I went home and made a candle holder.

It’s extremely unsafe.

Then today my dad made me go to the Kroger’s across the street to fill up some water bottles. It’s literally across the street from our house but I haven’t been there in 3 years because of my going crazy. I don’t think my dad noticed how nervous and anxious I was when I went in. I don’t know if I was nervous and anxious when I went in. Oh my god it was terrifying.

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“hehehe happy 4/20 i don’t really smoke pot but it’s 4/20 so i’ll pretend like i do”

SHUT UP PLEASE

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The freshman here at Challenge only need to take one TAKS test, since we took our English TAKS months ago and tomorrow we’re taking the Math TAKS. This week’s schedule has been crazy because sophomores have 3 different testings on different days of the week and juniors have 3 different testings on different days of the week and the freshman only have 1 test. And I’ve been playing Lullabies by Defiance, Ohio on guitar because I am that awesome but I think my wrist is going to fall off from doing too many F chords. God I need to go shopping.

Man I want this. But it’ll take like 1-2 years to save for the money. And I already have a fancy camera and I don’t want to look like I’m rich.